I am back . LAlalalalaala

It has been a long while since I wrote anything on this blog. Need to get better at blogging!!!!!!! The one notable thing is that we are on the countdown to Karinne and Kiwi's wedding in New Zealand! Seems kinda unreal to be going to a place that I have always dreamed about but never thought that I would get there !!! March 2, 2012 will come sooner than I think. Need to start saving with real focus! It is hard with my husband being on WCB because of his knee. Hope everything works out with it !! He has been in lots of pain!
This is rather a boring blog, but I promise the next one will be better !!!!

The Season and Time changes

Well. I have not written on this blog for a long time and it seems that the blog is a little messed up. I will see what I can do when I have more time.
These last few days have been incredibly difficult and I am huting big time. God is into the healing business, so I am waiting to see how this will all play out. God turns all thing to good for those who are in Christ Jesus. Yea!
Having Barry walk out like that was a kick in the gut. I knew that there were problems, but when you love someone sooooo much, in your mind you think that it can be changed and healed etc. I forgot one thing. He does not have Jesus and so when his brother committed suicide he just lost his bearings. He didn't have the Comforter to comfort him and he didn't turn to me. In fact, he turned further sway. Pity.
I am not going to rehash any of the gory details here. I need to go one day at a time and see what the Lord has for me. I need to learn how to be single with kids (even if they are all adults) Me, I will get thru with the grace and love of God and the way will be shown me because of God.
If you are reading this, pray for me. I need lots of that in this time! 31 years is a long time to just throw away !
I know that I am loved. I have been shown so much thru these last couple of days !
Blessed my family and friends !!

The Season of Going Beyond.

Yesterday at church the Lord dropped into my mind and I shared it ." Time to "Go Beyond!". Time to go beyond what we can think or imagine! Time to go beyond any abilities we have or think we have! Time to go beyond the torn veil and meet Jesus and get to know Him in an intimate way! Time to go beyond fear ! Time to go beyond our set limitations! Time to go beyond our dreams into His! Time to go beyond what we believe - out of unbelief !Time to go beyond our ways and follow His! Time to go beyond our head knowledge ! We need to push through into the BEYOND !Beyond us, beyond time, beyond everything ! This is the season ! Beyond walking into FLYING !!!!!!!!!! Push through !!!!"

The Battle Rages

Well, the battle rages. I thought ( oh silly me) that as I was out of leadership that the battle would calm down ! LOL , ya right ! I am having a real hard time with a discernment that I have had concerning a spirit that is operating in our church. Last Tuesday night at prayer I was "hit" by the stuff. I felt sooo discouraged and I had been under oppression for days. I had some prayer from friends and now I can say that it has lifted. I don't know what to do with this discernment other than pray.

A really strong prayer warrior said that she was told by the Lord that I was being attacked by someone astro - projecting. Funny, as I have not slept well in a couple of months ! Has this got anything to do with it?? (maybe) I can literally feel the words and prayers against me. At first I thought it was my imagination, but now I know differently.

There is a lady that is teaching me and Judy about our authority in Christ and also spiritual warfare.She is causing us to do the stuff instead of just learning about it. Not just head knowledge for us with this lady ! Love it !

Last weekend we went to a conference with Murray Dueck and he was teaching on the rest of the Lord and how to look upon Jesus and fight out of that rest. Seems like I am getting trained up for something and it is good ! It did make me want to take 2nd year with Murray, but I cannot afford it at this time....

The prophetic words that were spoken over me were confirming and also very encouraging !! One lady saw me as a bird on fire with no legs as I was meant to fly and not walk. That a way was made for me to come up higher.

During one of the activations I saw a sword of light with a blue stone. Murray got us to team up with one of the 3rd year students and do an exercise with them about the sword we were given. She knew that the sword was one of light and that it had a blue stone. She said to pick it up and I did with my left hand I said to her " This is weird as I am right handed" She said that she has found that if it is something to do with the right hand it means that it will manifest in the natural, but if it is the left hand, that it will manifest in the spiritual. I said that it made sense as I can do nothing with my left hand. I am totally right handed. So, it would have to be the Lord. She said that it is a sword of light and that firstly it was to light my way and then to light others way. She said that she saw me as Joan of Arc. ( this is interesting as it was the only thing when I was taking Samuel's Mantle, that I saw and it was not confirmed to me - that there was something to do with me and Joan of Arc)

Another word was someone saw me and a blue lollipop. She said she saw me moving into a time of sweet revelation and that I would even begin to see people with those big lollipops. ( I then told her that my daughter had brought one home from a wedding she went to - it was big !)

The same lady that had prayed for me earlier about the sword had a word later too and said that she saw something had been removed from me. It was like a wall or something.... That I had gone thru the fire and was now going to be able to give it away. That God was going to show me my worth and that I am a child of GOd. Some revelation.

Oh, the sword had on it written on the blade Jerm 33:3. (all about revelation)

The last thing is that someone saw that I had laid down something for a while, but that I was to pick it up again and that it had not diminished at all. (?)

The days since this all have been interesting to say the least ! The next day Chuck Pierce writes about Jerm 33:3. There has been a lot of that happening along with the warfare ! Then there is all the stuff happening that is on one hand causing division as we go into a solemn assembly this coming week. Never a dull moment !!!!

I have been getting the feelings for months now about September. Something happening then... others began to say that too. I also have been fixated on 09/09/09 that is coming up in the middle of our solemn assembly. Makes me wonder what is God up to.

I think some writer said it all " It is the best of times, it is the worst of times"
I know that God will be victorious and that is all I need to know ! Blessings!

The excitement is rising!

Last night we had a corporate prayer meeting and the Lord showed up BIG time and there also was an angel. It was an amazing time of prayer !!! Ken Greter and Shar led it and they told us about their amazing trip to Texas. Everywhere they went the Lord was showing them prophetically that the church is on the right track about the foundation of the church.

I had seen a picture of the basement of the church that had been torn up to expose a large pipe. This pipe was made of terra cotta or something like that. It had collapsed in on itself because the water had stopped flowing and it was dry.

I prayed into this and kept asking the Lord why it broke and how to fix it, how to pray for it to be fixed or replaced etc. I got nothing from the Lord for a few weeks. Then the Lord spoke to me and said that I was asking the wrong question. He said that I was not to ask why it broke or what we were to do to fix it, but rather to ask when the water had stopped flowing.

Last night (July 26th) I was soaking and so I asked the Lord, ok, when did the water stop flowing? He said when it was diverted. ( I saw a picture of water being diverted into a pond with a dam) That was all He told me.

The next day I was driving to work and what dropped into my spirit was this:

The words about the apostolic training/equipping center were for the church. ( spoken over the church and for the church) Somehow this got diverted to Todd and Fresh Fire. These words were not meant for Todd. He was given a vision and destiny with Fresh Fire and was not given this part to fulfill. With the confusion of the joining with Fresh Fire, it got put together with Todd and Fresh Fire.

While I was praying up at Eagle Mountain I got the scripture (Gen 26) about the old wells of Abraham being redug and about the new wells being dug too. I believe that the Lord is wanting the lid of the old well in our very core destiny to be removed and to "dig out" the debris so that we can once again have the flow of water in our very foundation. I believe that God is doing it.

As the "debris" of Fresh Fire is pruned off and dug out, we will begin to "see" the water begin to flow again. The "diversion" will be stopped and the water will be "routed" to its proper destiny. (an aligning)

The scripture (Romans 8:28) " And we know that to them that love God all things work together for good, for them that are called according to His purpose" jumped out at me . God is working ALL THINGS together for our good. He is putting into place, tearing down, rooting out etc all those things because He wants the BEST for us. We have had the good, but HE wants the best !! I am excited for this as I KNOW that God is good and He wants only good things for us. Sometimes the medicine tastes awful !!! But,it is for the good of the Body ! Praise God ! He is good !

(That was a word that I gave the leaders and they totally witnessed with it !)

Last night I saw our body and we were in a cocoon. It was a place of rest and protection. I got the scripture about not being conformed any longer to the world etc
There are many things that are going on around the church and we need to keep our eyes focused on God and at rest. If we struggle to enter into the warfare, then we tire ourselves out but still cannot get out. We need to rest and let the Lord deal with it all. It is HIS battle. He needs us to rest as we are going to need to not be tired for Sept as there will be a breakthrough then. Shar said it was like He was "buffering" us from what was around us so that we would stay in Hs rest !
Today I "saw" that for some it would feel like they were being "restrained" from things ( like ministry, going out, whatever) but that it was actually for protection and because He loves us. So, some will fight to be released too soon !!!

We are going to have a "solemn assembly " in Sept for 3 days. I can't find the scripture right now but it says something about being torn and repaired and something about after 2 days and then after 3 days. They are basing the 3 days on that... When I had heard about it I asked God...The last one we had 4 years ago Feb, You passed Your goodness before our eyes...What are you going to do this time? I felt that there would be something to do with fear of the Lord. Last night Ken brought up that the worship leader said that he felt something about the fear of the Lord. I had not told anyone what I was getting. It was a confirmation. Then Patricia saw an angel. She said that it was a "watching " angel and that it had a sword in it's hands with the point into the foundation. As she was talking about it the fear of the Lord came upon her and others. What is God going to do? I can't wait !!

Ok, this is long enough...God do what YOU want to do. We will receive whatever it is!
Fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom. We have been asking for wisdom. ( John Paul Jackson says that the fear of the Lord is the Awe of God)

Treasure stored in heaven

This Sunday I read something on Elijah list that got me thinking. When I got to church and the worship started there was something not right. It was like there was discord in the music and the spirit. (even Judi said that she is not musical and thought something was not right) It took about 3 songs until I said to Rena " Aha! We have hit it" I remembered what I had read in the word from Elijah list and what it had spoken to me and I shared it with Rena and Judi. Judi said that I needed to share it with the leaders. So, after thinking about it I went to Mike Hinger and told him what I had gotten. He said it needed to be shared. So, after the worship was over he got me up at the front sharing this:

There are things that irritate us by making us mad, making us get offended, hurting us, bugging us etc. These are the irritants that cause a pearl of great price to grow in our lives. It is like what has irritated us is covered over by the Lord with joy. In a pearl, if you cut it in half there would not be a solid core, but layer upon layer. (just like tree rings, they would if they could tell a story)
So, all the things that are irritating us in life , if we let the Lord, will be changed into the pearls of great price (treasures stored in heaven) It gave me such encouragement and others too !! God is good ! Consider it all joy......

Golden Ears Bridge

The first time I went over the new Golden Ears bridge, I knew that it was special ! I saw the beautiful metal eagles on the pillars and the last time I went over from the Maple Ridge side I saw the huge one on the ground at the entrance. I knew that God was showing me something, but was not sure at that point what.(the funny thing was it is called Golden EARS bridge not EAGLES ! Judi said it would have been pretty funny to see huge golden ears on the pillars ! Can't believe she said that before I did, I am usually so quick on the draw!LOL) Then a prophetic word came out of the States on Elijah list about God building new bridges to move His people around to where He wants them to be.
Wed night I went with a group of people to pray up on Eagle mountain. (coincidence?I think not !) This was the first time I had joined in with intercession since I got taken out. I was a bit tentative and was just listening to what they were praying and saying and then the Lord in my mind showed me the bridge. He told me that He was releasing the "golden eagles" the ones that had been sitting at His feet in the glory. He was releasing those with ears to hear what He was saying......
That He was preparing the way for them and it was new. I saw a huge sword come out of heaven and it was ready to be thrust into the ground in the Lower Mainland. I felt that it was a claiming of the land for the Lord once more. Some say that a sword point down says "judgement" I didn't feel that, but ?? I was holding onto what I saw and then Peter starts talking about a sword that he was seeing. Then he looks at me and said that he saw that there was a word on my lips and that I needed to release it. So I got up and spoke the word and where I was sitting a small golden jewel fell.
Amira ( I think she is Egyptian or native or something...she has an different accent)
started to prophesy over me quietly that the Lord had me in a waiting time. That He wanted me to know that I was not pushed aside and forgotten, but that He wanted me to wait. That there was something new that He was going to release and she also saw that there would be a birthing of many. ( don't know what the many meant )I got sooo
drunk in the spirit at that point and I did not want to fall as where we were sitting all around was sharp rocks !LOL She also prayed over me with a HUGE eagle feather !!
Peter at the end propesied about the new thing to me too.....?? I rest in the Lord!

It was an amazing night!!! I had been feeling kind of left out and restless before that night and now I have renewed hope !! We prayed for Canada and also the US as we could see the US border from where we were on the mountain. It was good to return to prayer !!! God is good !!!! All the time too !!

So, the golden eagles are being released !!! They have been with the Lord and are full of the knowledge of the glory of the Lord ! May they soar on high seeing things from His perspective !!!! PTL!

A devouring

I have been devouring books these last weeks. I read " The Messianic Church Arising" then " Release The Power of Jesus" by Bill Johnson. Also, I am reading " The Christian Curses" . (or something to that effect)I read "Visions Beyond the Veil" By HA Baker. I have been listening to Kris Valloten and Bill Johnson on Podcast and soaking..... I think that the Lord is laying the base for something that He wants me to study and maybe give me a revelation of something. Seems like this is what He does with me. I guess probably there is others that He does this for. I eagerly await this.

Last Friday night at soaking just about all of us got a jewel. It is not very big, but has a green hue to it. God is good !!!

I got a couple of pictures that I am praying into. They both have something to do with the church I go to right now. The first one was I saw a set of doors and I heard them close with a loud "clang" and then the church implode. I asked the Lord what it meant and He said that sometimes things look good on the outside, but on the inside things are not quite right. The second was : I saw a very large ship (with motors) Like the one that they talked about when the church was in the ABC center.
I heard the words "Time for a refit" I saw the ship being refit with huge sails. I saw the wind start blowing hard and we were to get in position to catch the wind. If we did not then the ship would capsize. (a lady at the church has had a dream since then of a ship capsizing) I felt that the way of positioning had something to do with a big push of prayer and waiting on the Lord.

I had a dream last night and I know that it went on for a while, but all I remember was that I (and someone else) was in a car and we were trying to get up a rather steep hill. The first time we tried, we did not get there, but the second time we got up. We made a huge "run" for it and then we got up. Don't know what it means, but hopefully it will be revealed...

I got some new music the last few days and one is Julie True. It is very good soaking music ! I like her voice and the songs have a prophetic feel to them. I am searching for some new stuff, but it is hard to find. I need another find like Jonathan David Helser !!

Well, I pray that the Lord reveals what it is that He has for me in the area of revelation. I know that it is for me and maybe others. Today He highlighted John 3:16
We know that scripture so well, but I want a revelation of that even more. I never want to become blaise about any scripture !

God, I am listening!....and watching !

Learning

I guess you can say that I am learning. God is trying to teach me some stuff and I am learning, but at a slower pace than I would like !! Like today at work I realized that I was holding something against someone and it has been a while and it was only today after work driving home that I repented and started to pray for that person. I know that I am to do that until I change my mind about them. It is a lesson that is hard but necessary.... A little humbling along the way is good for the character.

I was also was praying for those that are closest to me (not family this time) and that they would go further and higher than me. I realized again as I drove home that I have been thinking too much about what God has for me and that I needed to honour others before myself. To see them go far is something that the Lord has put in my heart. I started to pray for Rena and for Judi and others.

It is my desire to fulfill the destiny and call that He has for me, but not at the expense of others. I just saw some selfishness in me and frankly, I did not like it very much ! So, I thought that if I prayed for others instead of myself, then it would come against that spirit.

It is for something that I was saved and I desire to know God more and hear from Him what it is that He destined me to be and to do. I will search for Him with my whole heart and not stop until I find Him. I know some of Him, but I care to know more !!!
I guess He is the one that is giving me this incredible hunger to know Him more !!
So I sigh and know that nothing will satisfy me until I see Him. It is more difficult that anything that I have ever done !!! The distractions are many and the opposition of the enemy and also my flesh make it a very tough thing to do !! God, give me the grace to find you !!!!! Only YOU can satisfy !!

The "Women of Faith Arise" conference

I forgot to write about the conference that I went to in Hazelton. It is a very beautiful area and the people were awesome !!! I flew to Prince George and then I drove to Hazelton with Linda and Lucy. We decorated the Gitamaax Hall with butterflies and material and lots of other stuff. It looked really nice for such a big hall with very high ceiling !! Lucy did a good job ! Beth and Linda and others helped (me too)

I helped Peter and Beth at the book table that had King's In books etc on it and some Watchmen stuff that Peter had brought. Beth suggested that I sell my bracelets there and it took some thinking before I could. I sold about 25 of them or so. There was many blessings from the reactions of people as they looked at them. One stood out for me and that was a lady that came up and asked me about what they meant and as she listened she picked up the one called "Righteousness". She asked me what righteouness meant. I told her that it meant that it meant being right with God. (thru Christ as our righteousness)I told her that she was righteous before God because of Jesus and she said " But I smoke" I said " Hey, you know that it is bad for your health and you need to quit, but it does not change the fact that you are righteous before God because of what Jesus did. " At that point she said that she wanted to buy it and that would I pray over it and her. I did and I told her that as she wore it, it would remind her that she had righteousness thru Christ. I told her that as she got to know God more and got closer to Him, that she would lose the need to smoke and that He would heal her. She was so blessed, she went away wearing her bracelet and smiling a beautiful smile. She had looked so serious when she had first come up.

At one point at the conf. I felt a burden and started to travail. I turned to Beth and said that I did not understand as I knew that God had said to rest from intercession for 3 months and it was not up. She said it was like if God asked her to stop leading worship for 3 months. Would He expect her to stop worshipping herself personally? That is was something for me. (at one point someone had mentioned that there would be birthing and that we would be birthing ourselves)
Peter came and gave me a hug as I was crying and upset and spoke words and prayer over me and that helped me so much. I am not sure what he prayed, but I know that it went deep in my spirit !!!

God taught me a lot this trip and I was with those that mean a lot to me, so it was a safe place to be, even in hard times. I love that God has brought them all into my life ! ( I say that and mean it even though I know that some read my post ! LOL)


I will not forget that conference and I would like to go back there. This time I would like to take Rena with me. She needs to connect with her First Nations roots !!

God is good !

What IS the Lord doing?

Can't say definitively what the Lord is doing right now in my life... I know that there are areas that need defining and I need to push into the Lord for the answers.
I met with my church leadership (one of them) today and shared my heart and what I was getting. Some laughter, some tears and some understanding on both sides. God has given me a love for that man (in Christ) and talking to him was what I needed. Now, if only I knew what was up... I can feel a change coming and I don't know how it will look and be. This morning in the time between waking and sleeping when God often speaks I saw myself with a broken car antenna. I was trying to fix it with wire and then tape and it wasn't working. Then I saw a hand come and take the antenna from me and replace it with one that was no broken. I have some understanding what that was all about, but I think that there is more for me...

I am reading " Visions Beyond the Veil" by HA Baker. (Heidi Baker's Dad or grandfather, can't remember) The visions and experiences that the children of the mission had were incredible ! The colours that they spoke about. Reminded me of the colours that I had seen before. It is cementing in me just how real the spiritual realm is !! I knew it in my mind, but I think that it is moving down to my heart !!!
I like that !!

All the books I am reading, the verses that I am reading in the Bible , the Podcasts that I have downloaded on my iPOD of Kris Valloten and the visions and words that the Holy Spirit is showing me, all are starting to come together in a picture, but right now I don't know what that picture is ! This is how the Lord works with me. First the reading and studying and then the word and the understanding. Last night as I was watching some tv program I felt the stirring in my tummy (spirit) and I turned off the tv and waited for the Lord to speak. I waited and waited and He said nothing. Just felt that He was wanting to know if I would drop what I was doing to let Him speak OR it was not yet time and it was just a stirring.... makes me wonder.

So, Lord, what ARE You doing? I guess you will tell me/show me when the time is Kairos time. I wait till then with hope and peace.

Holiness

I have always had a certain idea as to what holiness meant, but since I read the book " The Rising of the Messianic Church" that has changed considerably !!!

The man who wrote the book says that we tend to be taught and we think that holiness and cleanliness are the same. He says that this is not true. Cleanliness has more to do with righteousness. Holiness , he says, should be defined as " special ; not common". He says that things that God considers holy are not to be treated as common, but are to be treated as special and made to be set apart from using them for ordinary things .

One example he gives is that our tithe is holy. The money that we tithe should not be treated the same way that the rest of our money is used - for day to day things.
That this money is for what God wants it to be used for and the upkeep of the church.
This is one of the reasons that when I get my paycheck, that I get my tithe out first and put it away, not allowing myself to be tempted to use it, even in emergency. It is holy, set apart for God's use.

The one scripture says that we are holy because He (Jesus) is holy. OR, we are special and made for a purpose other than the ordinary because Jesus lives in us.
That means that we are not made to be ordinary, with ordinary lives, but we are made to live extraordinary lives !!! We should not treat ourselves or other Christians as common, ordinary folk ! They (and us) are special (or holy)

He used an example, that God set the furnishing of the temple as holy. They were not made to be used for common everyday things. They were to be set apart to use in the ministry to and worship of the Lord. A priest would not wash his clothes in the brazen laver !!!

There is always a blessing attached to the treating things/people as holy. IF you consider ____ holy, then you will ________. It all depends on that it is that you are talking about.

The best example that he used was about the difference between everyday china and good china. Everyday china is used everyday, where the good china is used on special occasions, for special purposes and to honour special people. When the good china gets dirty, it is still special, even though there are bits of food on them. When we wash them we treat them different than the everyday china. We wash them separately and carefully as they are special. On the other hand, the everyday china is still common and ordinary dirty or clean. So, no matter if we are dirty or clean it does not take away from the fact that we are special and set apart for special purposes and time and God.

This really freed me from trying to "be holy", trying to clean up, striving.....
Yes, it is still important that we allow God to "clean " us up, but this is such a different way to see it !

Thank You God, that you made us special, with Your own hands . You love us and desire to see ourselves as made for a special purpose. We are NOT a common people, but extraordinary...

Living Stones of Remembrance

Last night I went to an amazing meeting in Aldergrove at the County Line Christian Fellowship church. The pastor had called a meeting so that we could listen to and be blessed by some living remembrance stones.

One man was Otis Clark from Seattle. He is 106 years young and was a part of Azuza Street. Another was Jim Watt from Seattle who is the last elder from the North Battleford Revival of 1948 (Latter Rain Revival). The last one was a lady named Rose that was commisioned by Smith Wigglesworth and is still travelling the world at 95 years young. Jim Watt was the baby at 85 years young.

Jim spoke and as he spoke I could feel the impartation that he was releasing. It was amazing !! He spoke about the revival and how it happened and he got us to sing in the spirit just as they had all those years ago when the "heavenly choir " showed up. It was soooo beautiful !! The people there are so hungry ! Otis and Rose got up and blessed us and spoke a few minutes . Otis is a black man and sounded like Louis Armstrong! He said that we are on God's side. He is still very spry at his age and does not use a wheelchair. Jim looked like a young man as he spoke with power under the unction of the Holy Spirit.

At the beginning was some great worship that got me to the throne room. I was in heaven (literally) Good stuff !

At the end the 3 and others got up the front and they laid hands on people as they went by. Albert Zehr was there and was asked to participate.

The first ones to go thru were the First Nations people that were there. There were 3 from Hazelton (one was Dale) and also that young girl from Vancouver that I forget her name (Sam adopted her). I was so happy when they called the First Nations first. Good for that pastor !! He has a burden for Canada and revival. He was the one that called all those 3 and set it up for Pentecost Sunday. It all fell into place very easily and we acknowledged that it was God !

Got to talk to Murray Dueck again and that was pretty cool ! I will be going to his Intimacy conference this month for sure !!!

So, we touched living stones of remebrance last night. Living testimonies of the goodness of God !!!!

Seek

Tonight at soaking I heard the Lord say that I was a "seeker" on a journey. I thought about the scripture: One thing I ask, this is what I seek. That I would dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to gaze upon His beautiful face. (ok it is late and I am not sure of the exact words)
He showed me a vision of the River of God. HE said to me that there are many that want the river of God and that when they get there they stay there. They play in the river, live in it, live beside it etc (nothing wrong with the river) He said to me...seek the source. He said that Moses , when he saw the burning bush, stayed for a while, but went on to seek the source...

I am getting opposition for me seeking the Lord and stepping back from "doing stuff".
It is funny that it comes from unexpected sources !! The last 3 months with this rest, I felt that it was the Lord telling me to take this rest.... I was obedient.
Now I feel a drawing similar to one a few years back..to come aside and seek Him alone. The last time was when I got many personal songs from the Lord.
The other day I was sitting asking the Lord what it was that He had for me in this new season and I got no answer. A little while later, the scripture " It is the glory of God to hide a matter, and the glory of kings to seek it out" dropped in my mind. I need (desperately) to get closer to the Lord !!!! Bobby Conner says that you have to come close to get an embrace, so I want to come closer and go deeper with the Lord so that He can embrace me and I can embrace Him and what He is doing>>>

I suspect that the cost for this may be higher than last time He called me aside. I am feeling the Esther call again, only this time I know that it is deeper.... In the last few months the Lord has been showing me who I am...my identity and I think that some is finally getting into my spirit/soul, yes and even body. I pray that my marriage will stay strong through this all !!!! He is not saved yet , but the warfare is actually coming more from saved people. God, cover us with Your blood !!!

Kathie Pelton wrote in her word about the 4th man in the fire:

I did not have to engage in the warfare, only in the intimacy.

"The Lord will fight for you, and you shall hold your peace and remain at rest."—Exodus 14:14

This is our weapon of warfare...INTIMACY! The Lord will fight for us as we are kept in His peace and rest (in stillness and quietness). So, allow the Lord to take you to where the green meadows and still waters are and watch His deliverance win the war for you. Keep your eyes on Him and off of the flames.



Is God worth it? YES ! Will it be worth it? YES ! PTL that I have some friends that understand !!! I want to honour them and bless them now !!!!! I thank God for them !
Just understand that this is a season and that it is time for me to SEEK the Lord while He may be found. He is definitely calling me and I am answering...

Made To Invade

Did you know that we are made to invade? That is what God was speaking to me this morning. We are not mean to die of hunger or thirst when there is a banqueting table set for kings and queens right before us.I saw a vision a week ago of a man with a backpack on his back crawling in a vast desert. The backpack was empty (all that he had brought with him was gone) His eyes were white with blindness. Right in front of him was a banqueting table, but he could not see it....

We are not meant to be held captive in our comfort zone , but we are meant to be free. (Jesus came to set us free...totally) Where there is the impossible, we are meant to fly !!! (with the wind of the Spirit holding us up)

We are not meant to be paralyzed in fear, but to move and operate in love ! To even go one step further and that love casts out all fear. In it's perfection it has the power to do that !!

We are not meant to walk thru this life crippled, but to run with the Lord where He directs us.

God hates sin, we know that , but He also hates sickness. He sent His Son to die for the sin, but He also sent His Son to be whipped for the sickness. (By His stripes we are healed) So, we are to hate what He hates and so we should hate sin AND sickness.
Sin is to the soul as sickness is to the body. We are meant to be whole and healed!

We are not meant to be silent. We have been given a voice to be the Voice of the Lord on this earth. We need to SHOUT, we need to PRAISE, we need to declare the Word when God asks us to. Silence is NOT golden !! (or an option)

We are not meant to hide out talents. They are meant for multiplication !!! Everything in God's Kingdom is about multiplication ! What we sow is what we reap.
Many times over.

We are not meant to stay in our little fortified churches, afraid of the big giants in the land. In the OT when a leper touched us we became unclean. In the NT when Jesus saw a leper, He touched them and they became clean. We are not meant to be afraid of the darkness but we are meant to take the light INTO the darkness and dispell it ! We are meant to invade the darkness and change it !!! The church is more afraid of being polluted with things of the darkness than it is of invading the darkness !! We are meant to GO!! (the giants should be our bread)

We are made to trust in the Lord. We are made to believe what He says. We are made to take the knowledge of the glory of the Lord throughout all the earth. Show His goodness to all mankind. Give that glass of water to the dying man...

We are not meant to be "good little Christians " that go to church on Sunday and the rest of the week we exist. We are made to be radical !(mountain movers) We are made to risk !!! We are made to invade !! Where is God asking you to invade?

On the Wind

There is something that is happening to me and I can only discern that I am getting hungrier for the Lord to move and overflow in my life !!! I am reading a book right now called "Amazed by the Power of God" and it has a number of well known people's
writings in it. The first one was Bill Johnson and he literally blew up some of my beliefs that I was amazed !! After that was Randy Clark, Bobby Conners, Steve Hill, and so many more !!! I love what the others wrote, but it is Bill Johnson that has so far impacted me the most !!!

I am understanding so much more about the gospel of the Kingdom instead of the gospel of salvation ! I guess I just fell in with others and thought that salvation was what we needed to share. Now I am understanding why it is the gospel of the Kingdom instead ! Kind of tweaks your beliefs !!

I realize that it is the Lord's presence we need period. That we should not move until He moves. I "knew" that but I understand it so much more !! Waiting on Him and not moving ahead of Him. The difference between the holy and the profane. (there we go again about that ) profane being doing something that the Lord has not asked us to do. (no matter what reason we give for doing it)

One of the writers of this book spoke on the releasing of the Zadok priesthood. They were the ones that would minister to God only. There is so much mixture and humanism in the Church that they need to rise and teach the difference between right and wrong, the holy and profane.....

It was funny, I was reading a humorous cartoon book and I don't remember what the cartoon was, but the question was " Are you a rock or a leaf?" Immediately I knew that the Lord was asking me that. I pondered that for a while, as I was at work. What I got was this: During a "new" move of God (or a change or transition) when the winds of change start to blow, will I be a rock and not moved or will I be a leaf carried by the wind to where the Lord wants me to go? Of course, I desire to be a leaf. It just kind of reminds me of being lifted by the wind that enables me to fly. Just a tidbit there.....

Let Your wind blow , Lord , and take me to the places that You want me. I will soar on Your wind and see high above the things that tried to hold me down on earth ! You came to set us free and I pray that we start walking (flying) in that freedom !

Blow winds of God Blow!

He Rejoices Over Us With Singing

This morning as I was soaking with the Lord before church I knew that something was up . When I got to church I felt like I was home again. I had felt soooo disconnected the last few weeks and was wondering if I was still to be a part of TC (Transform Central)

During the worship I "saw" a large heart come down from above and as we sang it started to rotate. As we sang more it rotated faster and faster. Then beams of light (laser beams) started coming from the heart. As more and more entered in, the rotating and beams intensified. I asked the Lord " What is this?" He said that He was rejoicing over us. I knew that I had to go up front and share with the Body about this, but I was hesitant , as I had said to the leaders that I would not share a word until I was healed from all that hurt. I eventually had no choice but to go up front and share. I said what I saw and then I said that I know that the Lord was releasing something, but I did not know what it was. (normally I would wait until I got the whole word before I would share)

I shared and then Sharon Gailey got up and said that when I spoke out that God was releasing something and I didn't know what, she said she got what it was. He was releasing the truth. The truth that we are loved by Him and that we are accepted and that we needed to let go of the lies that told us different.
There were other words that went with this to complete the picture. After the words were done I felt the Lord say to me the scripture " We know in part and prophesy in part..." He was showing me Body Ministry. That I didn't need to wait for the other parts as I went up it allowed others to release the other parts !! I laughed and laughed. God is good !

Holly was down from Kelowna and she prayed for me. She again saw the colours released over me and she saw paintings and paintings. She saw them being used in the marketplace and there was more but by that time I was toasted !!

So, on Sat when I met up with Rena at Michael's she saw me and said God just said " You're gonna be healed !" We wondered at the illnesses and problems physically that I have and what was going to be healed. When all this happened today I turned to Rena and said. I am healed. We started to laugh. ( we actually had laughed through most of the service )

During the worship there was wave after wave coming from the front ( I am sitting at the back now for this season) I turned to Rena and said " God said to ride the wave. Don't bail !"
At one point I could feel myself trying to launch off my feet but was tied to the earth. I saw a whirlwind (actually could feel it) and I got the story about Elijah and the whirlwind of fire. It wasn't that I thought that I was going up into a whirlwind of fire, but that it was a whirlwind of love (fire). Don't know if that makes sense, but it was what I saw and felt.

So, today my precious Father in heaven was rejoicing (spinning) over us!! What a cool thought !!!

Make Me a Voice

I was just listening to Rick Pino's new cd " Songs for An End Time Army" and there is a part of one of the songs that is stuck in my head. It is "Make me a voice, make me a voice, make me a voice , make me a voice, crying out in the wilderness" It is like my (and the church's) voice in the wilderness is too quiet, we need a VOICE!!
Declaring that the Kingdom of Heaven is at hand !" I am drawn when I am out of the house, to look at and cry over those that are lost and crippled/blind/deaf ! I cried out in the car yesterday (after seeing 2 people in wheelchairs) Lord, where is the power, forgive me that I am not walking in the "and these signs shall follow)"I have been too afraid to GO! I desire to lay hands on the sick and they SHALL recover !!!
The blind WILL see ! The deaf WILL hear !!! I am drawn to those crippled ! It is like the Lord is getting me ready to GO ! Both Rena and I are experiencing the same thing. She keeps hearing a phone ringing. We are tired of the same old church stuff and desire to make a difference....I want to be a voice crying out !!!! I really don't know all this is about, but it is getting stronger and soon I will be compelled to GO ! I need to find/recover my voice. I have had no voice long enough !!! Those in the church can hear it, but it is not for them all the time !!!

The other song that sticks with me is from the Martyr's song: They loved not their lives , even unto death ! I have been seeing too much flesh on me these days and I want me and the Lord to put it to death !! I realized while I was soaking this morning that my feet are in bad shape with the heel spurs, and that my walk is hobbled too right now. I need some healing.......

Lord, MAKE ME A VOICE! Amen!

Identity

I realized tonight at soaking, when Deborah began talking about it, that God is speaking to the Body about identity. That knowing Him and who HE is is really important, but that for what is coming we need to know our identity in Him and be firm in it !! I have been speaking to God about it for a while now. When Karinne gave me the crown necklace out of the blue, I knew that God was serious about it !!
Tonight he gave some people jewels that are at least 3-4 times bigger than the one that I got that was 3-4 times bigger than the ones Judi and Rena got. They are getting bigger. One was a triangle sort of cut that was green one way and then when you tipped it to the light it was gold. One person got a pink bagette cut one and another one was red shaped like a long rectangle. They are amazing, but God is more amazing !! We run around looking at all the jewels like little kids !! Gifts from Dad!

I know that God is talking to me right now in bits and pieces. I would read a scripture at work and then after work I would be listening to Bill Johnson's cd and he would speak about the same scripture. Or I would read a scripture and the music cd I had on had a song in it that sang about that scripture. I guess I am mostly in Hebrews for some reason. Oh Vivian, you know ! It is about faith. All this new year to me has been about faith, a deeper walk. I just stand amazed at how He works things in us !

Made my first prophetic bracelet today. I call it " The Heart of Jesus" It is red and gold with the hearts being red and the center part is gold. Rena is teaching me how to make them. We are also making prophetic scarves. The one that I will work on this weekend is called " Revelation" and is a beautiful blue silk. The beading could be the hardest thing on it. I sure hope that it turns out !! Our company is called
" Revive Designs" ( Re for Rena and viv for you guessed it !)

Rena and I had lunch together today and shared what God had been speaking over the week to us both. It is really interesting what God shares with us. God is good !!

Dad, give me a greater revelation of who I am in YOU !!

Reconnections

Friday April 3, 2009 was a time of reconnection with the "Watson" side of the family. I had not seen my cousins ( first and second) for awhile and that was awesome and then seeing my sister who lives in Calgary and my brother who lives in Houston Texas was a bonus too. Too bad it was at a funeral !

My sister and I through the years have reconciled any differences and get along very well. We have done lots of travelling over the last few years together. It is amazing how we get along now as that was not always the case! This weekend was a time of starting the reconcilliation with my brother Jack. His third marriage just broke up before Christmas and he took some courses that showed him that family was important and I feel that he was ready to let the past be the past. It was a good time of laughter and tears saying goodbye to the last of that generation of the Watson clan. The cousins are all that remain. We spoke about all the jokes that my Uncle George played on us and the stories that he told with that British humor with no smile on his face and we believed him for many years things that were not true. He always had the last laugh, but not in a mean spirited way! He was a true gentleman and very intelligent and loved boats and the sea.

My Dad and Uncle George and their Mom and Dad lived in Ocean Falls BC in it's hayday. At one time the family bought a small boat called "The Lion". They, however, did not like the name and because they were Scottish, they kept the letters and mixed them around to call the boat " The NILO" This was always a great laugh for the family. So, yesterday we went to the Red Lion Pub ( we laughingly called it the Red Nilo Pub) and raised a glass to Uncle George and visited for the last time this visit with Jack and Trish. It was a good day!

I will miss my uncle, although over the years the visits had become fewer and fewer. Last Oct (2008) he turned 90 years old and had a funfilled life. He , over the last 9 years had missed his "Peg "O My Life" (my Auntie Lorraine) and now they are reunited !I pray that it is in heaven!!!

Uncle George...till me meet again !! Love you !